Mental Health Awareness Week – Kelly’s Story – Mentors, Social Media and Inspiration
Written by LBRadio on 9th May 2021
Kelly Hinds presents the Friday morning Buzzing Music Mix from 10am to midday. Here she shares her mental health journey and how anti-depressants weren’t right for her.
Today am at my happiest, I work for myself, I am building a business and a long-lasting legacy for my children and hopefully their children. I am my own boss and I love it, no matter what challenges it throws at me.
This isn’t always how I’ve felt, I didn’t feel like this for a long time. I was overwhelmed and my anxiety was at an all-time high, I didn’t know this at the time, I just felt like a failure for not being able to cope with my busy life, for not being able to make everything perfect all the time. I felt trapped by the life I had created and I didn’t know what to do or even how I had got to this point.
In a few weeks it will be two years since I quit my job of fourteen years. It was the only option I thought I had, I thought it would take all the stress away, I thought I would be fixed. I very quickly found out it didn’t fix me, far from it. I was left feeling like I’d totally lost my identity, I didn’t know who I was, what I wanted or how to sort it out, I felt anything but fixed. I felt the most broken I had ever felt in my life.
The recovery took around a year, I never imagined even needing to recover from leaving my job, but it was bigger than that. I started to read and I still read self-development books, I find them fascinating – my first was Lost Connection by Johan Hari which resonated hugely as I was at the point I felt like anti-depressants were my only option – I thankfully didn’t go down that route after reading this book. I listen to podcasts by the likes of Ed Armstrong and James Smith. I’ve been lucky enough to find amazing mentors like Heidi Marke and I am grateful to have the best of friends and family to openly talk to. I cleaned up my social media, my feed gives me positive vibes only.
Through getting the right kind of help and advice I know exactly who I am, what my values are, how I tick and why, most importantly I know that there is absolutely nothing ‘wrong’ with me, the life I had created just wasn’t serving my health, my own judgemental thoughts about what I should and shouldn’t be doing were destroying my soul.
I chose to leave burn-out, perfectionism, damaging self-talk and not seeing my family flourish behind. I now choose to be kind to myself, give myself time, I now get involved in all the things that scare me in order to grow. It has made such a difference to my life, but I 100% couldn’t have got to this point without help.
Please talk openly to someone if you’re struggling, or if it’s more comfortable take the first step and subscribe to a podcast, you’ll soon realise you’re not the only one feeling the way you are feeling. There is an abundance of light at the end of the tunnel, you just need a helping hand to find it.
We are all capable of change, it’s not easy – but nothing grows in comfort zones except the grass!
I’m off to hug a tree! 🧡